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Title: No Air
Pairing: YunJae
Length: Oneshot
Author: heartoffire03
Rating: PG - R/NC-17
Genre: Romance, Fluff, Angst, Smut/Lemon
Summary: He's freezing in the sun; he's burning in the rain
Disclaimer: I don't own them
A/N: Hokay! This was my second entry to the TWIST competition. This has got to be one of the most personal story I've ever written. All of the words below basically come from my own heart and mind. Other than that, just try and enjoy it as much as possible ^^(I'll be posting this to Detox soon so thanks in advance!)
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But that really couldn’t be. It just didn’t…go together. To my current knowledge, my heart hasn’t stopped moving and I’m still breathing; I’m not six feet under the ground, I’m still moving which all comes down to the conclusion that I’m not dead and that I’m very much still alive and doing well. Well that’s how things usually work right? Right? Honestly, I don’t know, I don’t know anything more.
I’ve continued with life just as it was like before you came, long before you came. Wake up in the morning, get out of bed, go to work, put on the fake smiles, and wave countless sarcastic hellos. But despite the effort, it seems as if the life that I’ve grown to love and survive through threw me out of the door and turned its cruel back against me, leaving me confused and alone in a desolate place I’m alien with. Is it just me or did time vanished and stopped moving all of a sudden? Why did this happen all of a sudden? Why? Why? Why? My countless questions are, yet again, unanswered. Those questions are in vain, all in vain…
I’m sorry to bother you with all these nonsense but I still have one more question to ask you. It is as if this question planted itself in my poor brain, sticking with me after all these years. So please do tell me, exactly how am I supposed to move on without you?
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The suns rays mercilessly rain down upon the already-dry surface of the Earth, toasting anything – and everything – that come its way. Their skin tingled as the heat continued to pour upon their bodies; droplets of sweat sprinted from their foreheads, and down to their face and neck, only to be lost as it made its way down their shirts, never to be seen again. But despite the heat, both of them had no intention of stopping their summer activities. They, in turn, continued to race each other on their bicycles and laugh carelessly as if there was no tomorrow.
“Ahh! This is the life!” Jaejoong shouted at the top of his lungs, letting go of the handle completely and stretching his arms out as if he was flying.
Yunho laughed and mimicked Jaejoong’s actions. He wouldn’t have agreed more to Jaejoong’s statement. This really was the life that every teen is striving more. With nothing to do but fool around and get the best out of life and have fun. Besides, it was summer, what else can you possibly do than that?!
Feeling the punch of exhaustion after hours and hours of racing around the countryside with Jaejoong, Yunho felt that it was finally time to take a breather and rest under the shadow of a tree.
“Hey, Jaejoong,” Yunho says breathlessly. “Can we rest?”
Jaejoong places his hand on the handle once again and turned his head to look at Yunho with a grin.
“Tired already?” Jaejoong asks teasingly as his feet pedaled faster, gaining distance in front of Yunho.
The latter puffed his cheeks out and huffed as he forced his feet to catch up to Jaejoong.
‘Where the hell does he get his energy?!’ He mentally asks himself.
“Honestly speaking, yes I am,” Yunho panted out. “Aren’t you?”
Jaejoong laughs, throwing his head back and spraying water from his sweat soaked hair, “I am! I just don’t feel like stopping.”
Yunho could only look at him with an incredulous look. Really, this guy tends to be unbelievable sometimes…
“Ahaha! Your face looks hilarious when you have that look on!” Jaejoong says with amusement.
“Jaejoongiee~ Can we please rest now?” Yunho whined as he blew up his cheeks in a cute manner.
Jaejoong laughs and raised his hands up in a defeated manner, “Alright, alright. You win. Let’s find a good spot to rest shall we?”
Yunho grinned at Jaejoong to express his gratitude. He turned his head and swiveled his sight to look for a good spot. Not long after searching around the area, he found a nice shady spot. He reached out to tug the other boy for attention when, all of a sudden, he lost his balance and toppled off of his bike, hurtling straight down to the rocky ground. Flinching as his elbow and other parts of his body came in contact with the ground; he couldn’t help but curse himself for being such a careless idiot.
“Yunho!” Jaejoong says out loud in a panic as he jumped off his bike and crouched down to his sprawled form.
“Are you alright?! Oh gee, you idiot, how many times have I told you not to reach out like that?!”
Yunho could only groan in response as pain coursed through his body.
“Aigo~ you’re bleeding.” Jaejoong says as he sees the others grazed knee and elbow. “C’mon, can you get up? I need to get you out of the road; I don’t want the both of us to get trampled over by cars.”
And with that, Jaejoong slipped his arms around Yunho’s form and heaved him up to a standing position, dragging him to a shady spot under a tree to tend his wounds.
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I freeze under the sun.
I used to love and adore sunny days, mainly because it’d allow us to get out and just have the time of our lives. But ever since you left, I’ve despised them. They always remind me of what we used to have. Ghostly and faraway laughter of yours echoes in my ears, haunting me down wherever I go…
Did you know that your touch still lingers on my skin up until today? Did you know that? Even though my body was cased in pain that time, the minute your touch came in contact with my body, it was as if my skin opened up to you and welcomed your touch. But sadly, I don’t think I’ll ever your touch anymore. You’re too far for me now…too far…
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Hours after that incident, they both decided to stay put and just watch the scenery in front of them. Nothing’s better than relaxing after a tiring full-day exercise…
Yunho turned his head to Jaejoong and was surprised to see Jaejoong with a faraway look upon his face…
“Ohohoho, what do we have here? Kim Jaejoong is, what’s this, thinking!?” Yunho amusedly teases as he raised a hand up and curled it into a small ball, placing it right on top of his eye and focusing it on the others face, looking through it as if it was a camera.
“Yunho…” Jaejoong whispered out.
Yunho scrunches up his face in confusion and tilted his head to the side. Noting the seriousness in Jaejoong’s voice, he decided to cut the childishness and put on his serious mood.
“What is it?”
“Yunho…” Jaejoong repeated. “Yunho…did you know that we’re like a bicycle?”
Yunho’s confusion deepened even more as the words Jaejoong muttered out sunk in. What was Jaejoong thinking?
“Jaejoong…I…don’t know what you’re talking about…” Yunho replies dumbly.
“We, the two of us, are like a bicycle,” Jaejoong repeated. “See?”
He pointed a thin finger to a cyclist that happened to be passing by.
“Yeah, I see that…” Yunho nods in return. “But, really now, if you’re going to compare us to a bike, that’s sort of….lame? Even I – “
“A bike needs two tires to move. It wouldn’t even budge if it only had one.” Jaejoong gently said, cutting through his sentence. “Do you get it? It’s like us.”
Pausing to think for a second, his mind found it hard to connect their relationship to a bike…
“You and I wouldn’t move on without each other…” Jaejoong whispers out. “Right Yunho?”
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Right.
Up until this day, I’m still not sure what to make up off of that time. Looking back, it seems as if it was a prediction for what was going to happen next. As if God wanted me to know beforehand of the future events…
…If only I wasn’t stupid enough to miss the clues that were served right in front of me on a silver platter. Again, I blame my stupidity for loosing you. I will always blame myself…
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Yunho honestly had no idea why in the world they were still outside when it was currently raining cats and dogs. The rain soaked through their clothes, chilling them right to the bones, leaving absolutely no spot for dryness.
“Jae! C’mon, let’s go inside! We’re going to catch a fever if we stay out longer!” Yunho shouted through the loud pattering of the rain.
But Jaejoong only stood motionlessly in the middle of the darkened street, his clothes sticking to his form like a second skin and his head tilted up to the sky. The rain clashed together with his skin, bouncing up and down and thus creating a somewhat glowing aura around Jaejoong from Yunho’s eyes.
“Jae - !”
“Did you know that I hate the rain Yunho?” Jaejoong suddenly asks out loud.
“What?” Yunho replies, unsure of what to say.
“I’ve hated ever since I can possibly remember. It’s ugly, it’s wet and it gets everywhere…”
Yunho let out a nervous chuckle and beckoned Jaejoong to come over already, “Well what’re you still doing out there then? C’mon!”
“Look up Yunho…”
“What - ?”
“Just look up.”
Having no other option than to obey Jaejoong, Yunho looked up and was immediately greeted by countless rain drops that barged their way against his face. But somehow, he managed to open his eyes and look up to the darkened night sky, only to see nothing but pure darkness up above. Not even a slightest trace of a stars twinkle.
“I love the sky Yunho…” Jaejoong’s voice floated from a few feet beside him.
Yunho could only listen to the words that were tumbling out of the others tongue. He knew that he shouldn’t interrupt the other…
“When it’s raining, it seems to me as if the sky’s crying its eyes out. And do you know who reminds me of whenever I look up at the sky?” Jaejoong continued. “You. The whole sky is your face, so breathtaking and those bright, twinkling stars are your eyes and teeth, always bright upon me. But, as you can see, there are no stars when it’s raining because the rain clouds cover over them. To me, that’s like seeing you without a smile on your face; and the rain? The rain…is like your tears raining down upon me. I don’t want to ever see you cry Yunho…I don’t…”
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I burn under the rain.
Each drop on my skin is like acid, deteriorating me each time one falls on me. If the rain was like my tears to you, then the rain is like your tears to me. It hurts. It hurts more than the pain I felt when I fell off that bike as I tried to reach out for you. It hurts more than anything…Knowing that I won’t be able to reach out to you as you cry, knowing that right now, you may be crying because of your longing to me, knowing that your own hands are against your skin instead of mine…
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“Unghh…”
Jaejoong moaned in pleasure as Yunho slowly slid himself into his hole, pausing every once in awhile to softly ask him if he was hurting or not. He would only answer with a grunt as he pushes himself against Yunho, edging him to keep going. Finally, Yunho drove home, hitting that spot that made him see endless bursts of stars everywhere. Yunho moaned in pleasure as his throbbing member fidgeted within Jaejoong’s tight and warm hole.
“Oh God…Move Yunho…Move…”
Yunho obliged and slammed himself into Jaejoong. Soon enough, they created a slow rhythm together. Only then did Jaejoong groan in pleasure and dug his nails against his back did he notice that Jaejoong wanted more speed. Eager to please his lover, Yunho fastened the pace and slammed himself into Jaejoong over and over again.
“Ahh….Uohh….”
“Ahn….Hah…”
Jaejoong could only moan and scream in delight as Yunho pounded himself into him, marking him his own and his own only.
“Ah! I’m…so…oh…uohh…
With one final push, Yunho released himself into Jaejoong, groaning out loud in ecstasy as the other screamed.
“Unghh!”
“AHHH!”
Yunho’s body flopped itself down upon Jaejoong’s, crushing the other’s body and stopping the airflow into Jaejoong’s screaming lungs. They stayed like that for a few minutes as they catch their breaths and listening to each other’s pounding heartbeats. With a heave and a groan, Jaejoong pushed Yunho off of him, sending him sprawled on the bed right next to him…
“Tired?” Yunho asks, muffled by a pillow.
Jaejoong lazily nodded as he turned and scooted closer to Yunho’s form, winding his arms around the other’s waist and placing his head onto the crook of Yunho’s neck.
“Really now - ?”
“I love you…” Jaejoong muttered out.
Yunho could only smile to himself as he repositioned himself to a much comfortable position and snaked his arms around Jaejoong’s form.
“I love you too…” He murmured back to his lover’s ears as Jaejoong’s breathing became more relaxed and gentle.
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My eyes fluttered open only to quickly retreat back down together as the sunlight tore its way through the half-opened blinds. My vision was immediately bathed with the color of crimson as the warm sunlight made with contact with my eyelid. Was that really warmth? I don’t know. I’ve long forgotten what warmth felt like long ago. My senses left me just as you did…
‘I wonder who sleeps next to you these days…’
Getting out of bed, I robotically went through the normal procedure of the day. Eat breakfast, take a shower, change clothes, and get out of the house. It was the same damn thing over and over again and I’m beyond sick of it…
Getting out of the house, I see the familiar faces around me. Before, I used to smile and greet them good morning with you in my arms. But now, I don’t even glance at them anymore, and neither do they…Instead of turning right and head to my office, I walked the opposite way and head to a very familiar place I often visit these days…
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The familiar tombstones of the cemetery loomed up ahead of me. I slowly made my way to a certain one and stood in front of it, fixing my gaze upon the ever so familiar name that was engraved against the stone. Crouching down, I reached out for the stone and was about to let my fingers graze across the name when I heard rustling behind me. I jolted upright and moved behind the tombstone, only to see a familiar man clad in a black suit standing motionlessly where I was just at with his head bowed down.
Someone once told me that to love is to live and to live is to love. That love is very much entwined with life and vice versa. That loving someone is like living and that living is like loving.
I disagree.
“How are you doing Yunho-ah?” The man whispers as he kneels in front of the grave, brushing the dead leaves off of the surface. “I’m sorry if I haven’t visited in awhile.”
A tear slid down my cold skin as I watched the man with saddened eyes. The man slowly lifted his head up and reached out to touch the gravestone. The face of my beloved never looked so different…Still as breathtaking as ever…
To my current knowledge, my heart hasn’t stopped moving, it just ceased a long time ago, I’m not six feet under the ground, I’m stuck on the surface because I just can’t let go.
‘Show me the tears you never shed Jaejoong. Tell me the words I never said…’
“Is it true when we die we go up to the sky?” Jaejoong asks to no one in particular.
I laughed and replied, “I don’t know Jaejoong, I don’t know.”
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A/N: ................How was that? Weird right? >___< Yes I know, my mind is one heck of a place to wander into.
Comments? Please? Yes? No?
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Pairing: YunJae
Length: Oneshot
Author: heartoffire03
Rating: PG - R/NC-17
Genre: Romance, Fluff, Angst, Smut/Lemon
Summary: He's freezing in the sun; he's burning in the rain
Disclaimer: I don't own them
A/N: Hokay! This was my second entry to the TWIST competition. This has got to be one of the most personal story I've ever written. All of the words below basically come from my own heart and mind. Other than that, just try and enjoy it as much as possible ^^
But that really couldn’t be. It just didn’t…go together. To my current knowledge, my heart hasn’t stopped moving and I’m still breathing; I’m not six feet under the ground, I’m still moving which all comes down to the conclusion that I’m not dead and that I’m very much still alive and doing well. Well that’s how things usually work right? Right? Honestly, I don’t know, I don’t know anything more.
I’ve continued with life just as it was like before you came, long before you came. Wake up in the morning, get out of bed, go to work, put on the fake smiles, and wave countless sarcastic hellos. But despite the effort, it seems as if the life that I’ve grown to love and survive through threw me out of the door and turned its cruel back against me, leaving me confused and alone in a desolate place I’m alien with. Is it just me or did time vanished and stopped moving all of a sudden? Why did this happen all of a sudden? Why? Why? Why? My countless questions are, yet again, unanswered. Those questions are in vain, all in vain…
I’m sorry to bother you with all these nonsense but I still have one more question to ask you. It is as if this question planted itself in my poor brain, sticking with me after all these years. So please do tell me, exactly how am I supposed to move on without you?
The suns rays mercilessly rain down upon the already-dry surface of the Earth, toasting anything – and everything – that come its way. Their skin tingled as the heat continued to pour upon their bodies; droplets of sweat sprinted from their foreheads, and down to their face and neck, only to be lost as it made its way down their shirts, never to be seen again. But despite the heat, both of them had no intention of stopping their summer activities. They, in turn, continued to race each other on their bicycles and laugh carelessly as if there was no tomorrow.
“Ahh! This is the life!” Jaejoong shouted at the top of his lungs, letting go of the handle completely and stretching his arms out as if he was flying.
Yunho laughed and mimicked Jaejoong’s actions. He wouldn’t have agreed more to Jaejoong’s statement. This really was the life that every teen is striving more. With nothing to do but fool around and get the best out of life and have fun. Besides, it was summer, what else can you possibly do than that?!
Feeling the punch of exhaustion after hours and hours of racing around the countryside with Jaejoong, Yunho felt that it was finally time to take a breather and rest under the shadow of a tree.
“Hey, Jaejoong,” Yunho says breathlessly. “Can we rest?”
Jaejoong places his hand on the handle once again and turned his head to look at Yunho with a grin.
“Tired already?” Jaejoong asks teasingly as his feet pedaled faster, gaining distance in front of Yunho.
The latter puffed his cheeks out and huffed as he forced his feet to catch up to Jaejoong.
‘Where the hell does he get his energy?!’ He mentally asks himself.
“Honestly speaking, yes I am,” Yunho panted out. “Aren’t you?”
Jaejoong laughs, throwing his head back and spraying water from his sweat soaked hair, “I am! I just don’t feel like stopping.”
Yunho could only look at him with an incredulous look. Really, this guy tends to be unbelievable sometimes…
“Ahaha! Your face looks hilarious when you have that look on!” Jaejoong says with amusement.
“Jaejoongiee~ Can we please rest now?” Yunho whined as he blew up his cheeks in a cute manner.
Jaejoong laughs and raised his hands up in a defeated manner, “Alright, alright. You win. Let’s find a good spot to rest shall we?”
Yunho grinned at Jaejoong to express his gratitude. He turned his head and swiveled his sight to look for a good spot. Not long after searching around the area, he found a nice shady spot. He reached out to tug the other boy for attention when, all of a sudden, he lost his balance and toppled off of his bike, hurtling straight down to the rocky ground. Flinching as his elbow and other parts of his body came in contact with the ground; he couldn’t help but curse himself for being such a careless idiot.
“Yunho!” Jaejoong says out loud in a panic as he jumped off his bike and crouched down to his sprawled form.
“Are you alright?! Oh gee, you idiot, how many times have I told you not to reach out like that?!”
Yunho could only groan in response as pain coursed through his body.
“Aigo~ you’re bleeding.” Jaejoong says as he sees the others grazed knee and elbow. “C’mon, can you get up? I need to get you out of the road; I don’t want the both of us to get trampled over by cars.”
And with that, Jaejoong slipped his arms around Yunho’s form and heaved him up to a standing position, dragging him to a shady spot under a tree to tend his wounds.
I freeze under the sun.
I used to love and adore sunny days, mainly because it’d allow us to get out and just have the time of our lives. But ever since you left, I’ve despised them. They always remind me of what we used to have. Ghostly and faraway laughter of yours echoes in my ears, haunting me down wherever I go…
Did you know that your touch still lingers on my skin up until today? Did you know that? Even though my body was cased in pain that time, the minute your touch came in contact with my body, it was as if my skin opened up to you and welcomed your touch. But sadly, I don’t think I’ll ever your touch anymore. You’re too far for me now…too far…
Hours after that incident, they both decided to stay put and just watch the scenery in front of them. Nothing’s better than relaxing after a tiring full-day exercise…
Yunho turned his head to Jaejoong and was surprised to see Jaejoong with a faraway look upon his face…
“Ohohoho, what do we have here? Kim Jaejoong is, what’s this, thinking!?” Yunho amusedly teases as he raised a hand up and curled it into a small ball, placing it right on top of his eye and focusing it on the others face, looking through it as if it was a camera.
“Yunho…” Jaejoong whispered out.
Yunho scrunches up his face in confusion and tilted his head to the side. Noting the seriousness in Jaejoong’s voice, he decided to cut the childishness and put on his serious mood.
“What is it?”
“Yunho…” Jaejoong repeated. “Yunho…did you know that we’re like a bicycle?”
Yunho’s confusion deepened even more as the words Jaejoong muttered out sunk in. What was Jaejoong thinking?
“Jaejoong…I…don’t know what you’re talking about…” Yunho replies dumbly.
“We, the two of us, are like a bicycle,” Jaejoong repeated. “See?”
He pointed a thin finger to a cyclist that happened to be passing by.
“Yeah, I see that…” Yunho nods in return. “But, really now, if you’re going to compare us to a bike, that’s sort of….lame? Even I – “
“A bike needs two tires to move. It wouldn’t even budge if it only had one.” Jaejoong gently said, cutting through his sentence. “Do you get it? It’s like us.”
Pausing to think for a second, his mind found it hard to connect their relationship to a bike…
“You and I wouldn’t move on without each other…” Jaejoong whispers out. “Right Yunho?”
Right.
Up until this day, I’m still not sure what to make up off of that time. Looking back, it seems as if it was a prediction for what was going to happen next. As if God wanted me to know beforehand of the future events…
…If only I wasn’t stupid enough to miss the clues that were served right in front of me on a silver platter. Again, I blame my stupidity for loosing you. I will always blame myself…
Yunho honestly had no idea why in the world they were still outside when it was currently raining cats and dogs. The rain soaked through their clothes, chilling them right to the bones, leaving absolutely no spot for dryness.
“Jae! C’mon, let’s go inside! We’re going to catch a fever if we stay out longer!” Yunho shouted through the loud pattering of the rain.
But Jaejoong only stood motionlessly in the middle of the darkened street, his clothes sticking to his form like a second skin and his head tilted up to the sky. The rain clashed together with his skin, bouncing up and down and thus creating a somewhat glowing aura around Jaejoong from Yunho’s eyes.
“Jae - !”
“Did you know that I hate the rain Yunho?” Jaejoong suddenly asks out loud.
“What?” Yunho replies, unsure of what to say.
“I’ve hated ever since I can possibly remember. It’s ugly, it’s wet and it gets everywhere…”
Yunho let out a nervous chuckle and beckoned Jaejoong to come over already, “Well what’re you still doing out there then? C’mon!”
“Look up Yunho…”
“What - ?”
“Just look up.”
Having no other option than to obey Jaejoong, Yunho looked up and was immediately greeted by countless rain drops that barged their way against his face. But somehow, he managed to open his eyes and look up to the darkened night sky, only to see nothing but pure darkness up above. Not even a slightest trace of a stars twinkle.
“I love the sky Yunho…” Jaejoong’s voice floated from a few feet beside him.
Yunho could only listen to the words that were tumbling out of the others tongue. He knew that he shouldn’t interrupt the other…
“When it’s raining, it seems to me as if the sky’s crying its eyes out. And do you know who reminds me of whenever I look up at the sky?” Jaejoong continued. “You. The whole sky is your face, so breathtaking and those bright, twinkling stars are your eyes and teeth, always bright upon me. But, as you can see, there are no stars when it’s raining because the rain clouds cover over them. To me, that’s like seeing you without a smile on your face; and the rain? The rain…is like your tears raining down upon me. I don’t want to ever see you cry Yunho…I don’t…”
I burn under the rain.
Each drop on my skin is like acid, deteriorating me each time one falls on me. If the rain was like my tears to you, then the rain is like your tears to me. It hurts. It hurts more than the pain I felt when I fell off that bike as I tried to reach out for you. It hurts more than anything…Knowing that I won’t be able to reach out to you as you cry, knowing that right now, you may be crying because of your longing to me, knowing that your own hands are against your skin instead of mine…
“Unghh…”
Jaejoong moaned in pleasure as Yunho slowly slid himself into his hole, pausing every once in awhile to softly ask him if he was hurting or not. He would only answer with a grunt as he pushes himself against Yunho, edging him to keep going. Finally, Yunho drove home, hitting that spot that made him see endless bursts of stars everywhere. Yunho moaned in pleasure as his throbbing member fidgeted within Jaejoong’s tight and warm hole.
“Oh God…Move Yunho…Move…”
Yunho obliged and slammed himself into Jaejoong. Soon enough, they created a slow rhythm together. Only then did Jaejoong groan in pleasure and dug his nails against his back did he notice that Jaejoong wanted more speed. Eager to please his lover, Yunho fastened the pace and slammed himself into Jaejoong over and over again.
“Ahh….Uohh….”
“Ahn….Hah…”
Jaejoong could only moan and scream in delight as Yunho pounded himself into him, marking him his own and his own only.
“Ah! I’m…so…oh…uohh…
With one final push, Yunho released himself into Jaejoong, groaning out loud in ecstasy as the other screamed.
“Unghh!”
“AHHH!”
Yunho’s body flopped itself down upon Jaejoong’s, crushing the other’s body and stopping the airflow into Jaejoong’s screaming lungs. They stayed like that for a few minutes as they catch their breaths and listening to each other’s pounding heartbeats. With a heave and a groan, Jaejoong pushed Yunho off of him, sending him sprawled on the bed right next to him…
“Tired?” Yunho asks, muffled by a pillow.
Jaejoong lazily nodded as he turned and scooted closer to Yunho’s form, winding his arms around the other’s waist and placing his head onto the crook of Yunho’s neck.
“Really now - ?”
“I love you…” Jaejoong muttered out.
Yunho could only smile to himself as he repositioned himself to a much comfortable position and snaked his arms around Jaejoong’s form.
“I love you too…” He murmured back to his lover’s ears as Jaejoong’s breathing became more relaxed and gentle.
My eyes fluttered open only to quickly retreat back down together as the sunlight tore its way through the half-opened blinds. My vision was immediately bathed with the color of crimson as the warm sunlight made with contact with my eyelid. Was that really warmth? I don’t know. I’ve long forgotten what warmth felt like long ago. My senses left me just as you did…
‘I wonder who sleeps next to you these days…’
Getting out of bed, I robotically went through the normal procedure of the day. Eat breakfast, take a shower, change clothes, and get out of the house. It was the same damn thing over and over again and I’m beyond sick of it…
Getting out of the house, I see the familiar faces around me. Before, I used to smile and greet them good morning with you in my arms. But now, I don’t even glance at them anymore, and neither do they…Instead of turning right and head to my office, I walked the opposite way and head to a very familiar place I often visit these days…
The familiar tombstones of the cemetery loomed up ahead of me. I slowly made my way to a certain one and stood in front of it, fixing my gaze upon the ever so familiar name that was engraved against the stone. Crouching down, I reached out for the stone and was about to let my fingers graze across the name when I heard rustling behind me. I jolted upright and moved behind the tombstone, only to see a familiar man clad in a black suit standing motionlessly where I was just at with his head bowed down.
Someone once told me that to love is to live and to live is to love. That love is very much entwined with life and vice versa. That loving someone is like living and that living is like loving.
I disagree.
“How are you doing Yunho-ah?” The man whispers as he kneels in front of the grave, brushing the dead leaves off of the surface. “I’m sorry if I haven’t visited in awhile.”
A tear slid down my cold skin as I watched the man with saddened eyes. The man slowly lifted his head up and reached out to touch the gravestone. The face of my beloved never looked so different…Still as breathtaking as ever…
To my current knowledge, my heart hasn’t stopped moving, it just ceased a long time ago, I’m not six feet under the ground, I’m stuck on the surface because I just can’t let go.
‘Show me the tears you never shed Jaejoong. Tell me the words I never said…’
“Is it true when we die we go up to the sky?” Jaejoong asks to no one in particular.
I laughed and replied, “I don’t know Jaejoong, I don’t know.”
A/N: ................How was that? Weird right? >___< Yes I know, my mind is one heck of a place to wander into.
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